Thank heaven for mom's leftover brownies. They've got my name on them. Every. Last. One.

I've begun writing this entry three times now, and have deleted it each time.  I think I need to simply start from the beginning and keep writing until I get to now.

Friday started out fairly normal and even fun, with a morning of yard sales, a wonderful afternoon playdate, and an evening hair appointment where I had five whole inches hacked from my head as I begin the "Simpler Hair, Simpler Times" tour.  Or something like that.  (I'm three for three on whacking my hair during pregnancies.  Crazy ass hormones.  Heh.)

Unfortunately, on Friday night the shit finally really hit the fan in regards to the situation we're in.  Not in the way of having an argument or anything, just one of those terribly long, terribly stressful, terribly sad talks that married couples have to have from time to time when, say, everything seems to be falling down around them.  Eighty percent of the stress comes from a source I absolutely cannot talk about on the internet, but is directly related to, and all at once worse than, the situation with our non-selling house.  Aah compounded issues.

On Saturday morning Breain and I met for a fantastic moms only breakfast, filled with kind words, inspiring advice, and bacon.  It doesn't get much better than that, I say, and it made my day.  Right up until later that night, when Kevin, Jack and I were in a car accident.  KJ was at a bonfire with Kevin's mom, and the three of us were out at the mall.  On the way back to pick up KJ, we were talking as Kevin was driving, and suddenly I looked up to notice that all four lanes of traffic were slamming on breaks, and it was too late for us to stop. 

We smashed into the car in front of us, who smashed into the car in front of them.  I saw it coming the split second beforehand, and while screaming for Kevin to stop, I braced myself and and pushed my back against the seat as hard as I could to prevent baby Marin from being crushed by my seatbelt.  Kevin and I were okay, and Jack was fine (excited, even, God help me) but I spent the next hour and a half crying my eyes out as I waited to feel my baby move.

She did, eventually, when we got home and I gulped down a full blast of caffinated coffee.  It was very scary and about as horrible an experience as I've ever had, and one I plan on never having again.  I don't know what will come of the situation with the other two cars, as the woman directly in front of us jumped out immediately screaming like a banshee at the police about "Momma's diabetes!"  I'm going to leave this one completely in the hands of our insurance company.

On Sunday we had both sides of our family over for a Mother's Day barbecue, and everything was nice.  Pouring, freezing rain, and blowing wind, but nice.  Indoors, it was.  And I received chocolate in multiple forms.

I collapsed on the couch at nine o'clock last night, trying to keep my eyes open long enough to spend some time reading about Landlording while Kevin worked on something or other for work.  We have finally decided that our only good option at this point is to put the house up for rent, bail ourselves out at much as possible, and hope for better luck at the real estate market in a couple of years. 

So the roller coaster ride is still rolling, but we're hanging on for dear life.  I've never experienced a set of crazy months like these before, but I do know that things have to calm down eventually.  And when they do, I'll let you know.  Thanks for being here.  It means so much.

Comments

[Jackie]

Hugs!

I'm so glad everyone is okay - I can't imagine how scary it would be to be in an accident while pregnant, and with a kid in the car. To say you've got a few things going on is an understatement. Hang in there.

[Becca]

Oh gosh, I am so sorry about the accident! That must have been so scary. Glad everyone is alright. I really hope things calm down for you soon too. I am inspired by the way you guys have become stronger as a family through it all, though.

[David McNelis]

Glad you are all ok. I must say, though, I did just spit water out my nose. Chris got in a fender bender with a lady in a not so great part of town in a very similar way. The woman got out (very large, scary woman) and started screaming at her and saying "I gots the diabetes!" Then made us go to a police precinct to file a report (and not the closest one either, but one in a neigborhood with a demographic more like her own). It was a nightmare.

[Michelle Z]

Oh my god, Molly. I'm so glad you are all okay!

[Julie]

HOLY COW! I'm so glad that you guys are ok. I'll hope for an easy time with the insurance.

[erica]

Shiite! I'm so glad you are ok. Enjoy your chocolate. Is your car ok?

[glamgranola]

Phew! Glad you are all OK! Things are going to start looking up. They just have to, you've had your share. Now go eat a brownie-or 6.

[Hilary]

Jesus, Molly. Oh man. Things really can only go up from here. I mean, seriously.
I did chuckle at Jack liking the accident. God help you is right. :-)

[Brooke]

So sorry about the car!
I would love to see photos of the new hair cut and maybe one of the car. What can I say I love pictures.

[crookedeyebrow]

Holy cow! Is that car cursed?

I am happy to read no one was injured.

Indulge in brownies and hope for the best.

[liz]

First, I'm so glad to hear that you're all okay. How scary! As for the car and all that, well, that's why we pay insurance.

I wish I had a magic wand to make the rest of the stuff All Better, instead I'm thankful for Frema and bacon.

xoxo from Brooklyn.

[Christina]

Im so very sorry. Your family has got to catch a break, soon. Am thankful that you are all okay.

[Karen]

Yikes, I have goosebumps! I am so glad that all of you (including little miss Marlin) are okay. If I were in your neck of the woods, I'd scoop up your rental! If it makes you feel any better, we are losing our home to foreclosure...

[Laylabean]

Molly!!! I'm so thankful you are all okay! So sorry to hear about the accident AND the house AND for whatever else it is you're going through that you can't talk about. It seems to come all at once, doesn't it? *hugs* You're in my thoughts and prayers.

[Frema]

My heart was in my throat the whole time I was reading this entry, and I couldn't comment until I had talked to you personally to make sure that everything was fine. Now I can breathe again.

I had an awesome time at breakfast, too. Everything is better with Mom Talk and bacon.

[bubblewench]

OMG! I am so glad you are all ok. Not what you needed right now. I'm very sorry. Again, just glad you are ALL OK!

[Amy W]

Good grief, I am glad you are okay. And I hope whatever stresses are there are getting fixed...and I am hoping for a good renter.

[Liza]

How scary! I am so glad that you were all ok. What a nasty way to compound all the stress and upset you already had going on.

I hope it all gets resolved soon. Who knows? Maybe you'll like being a Landlord Family.

[Rachel]

I am just gonna say I'm sorry and offer you hugs, good thoughts and prayers.

Also, I'm so glad you were all ok.

[Isabel]

Oh my goodness Molly...I'm so sorry to hear about all this stress and the scary car accident on top of all of this. But, I'm glad that all is well with you and baby.

[BetteJo]

Oh Lord. From the last post to this - I was hoping something wonderful had happened. The trite, old - when it rains it pours ... yeah. You know all about it.
Really really glad the accident wasn't worse and everyone is uninjured. I guess maybe that IS the wonderful thing. Whew. Pregnant women are supposed to stay off the D rides!

[cpa mom]

just chiming in to say THANK GOD everyone is o.k. and tell you that you are all in my prayers every day still. You are in a bad spot but I just know the sun will come out here eventually. Many hugs to you across the miles.

p.s. Bacon cures all. So does chocolate. Get yourself a copy of the first Sweet Potato Queens book and make every recipe in it. "chocolate stuff" is the best!

[Jen L.]

Oh, Molly! I'm so glad you're all ok. Jeez, this is SO not what you needed right now. Sending good vibes your way.

[HollowSquirrel]

Dang, I've been bad at keeping up with the Google Reader, so I'msorry to get this news late in the game-- but I'm so relieved to hear everyone is ok. My gooodness, girl. Big hugs to everyone.

[SJ]

I think HollowSquirrel and I have been hanging out...I got all stoked about the house news that I just skipped this entry and uh...now I'm all 'car accident'?

Glad to hear you are all okay.....